January 26, 2023
I grew up in a Christian household, and it was only really in my 20s that I considered this wasn’t the path I was interested in taking. I mention this because when I was introduced to Scientology, I could conceptually understand the texts of the Bible in terms of survival. People not having fridges or having allergies would be a great reason to say “don’t eat pork and shellfish,” for one.
Something that fascinates me is right at the beginning of the Bible when Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit. Obviously, this was considered an overt by all, but likely the more interesting part isn’t that they ate the fruit, but that neither of them could take responsibility for it - Adam blamed Eve, Eve blamed the snake, and the snake blamed God.
For me, I don’t take the original sin as the reason why they were banished from the garden of Eden, I instead take the irresponsibility and refusal of wrongness as the reason why they were banished. Similarly, it’s not our overts that make us wrong, it’s the refusal of responsibility thereafter that banishes us from our own garden of Eden.
It’s really a perfect trap. Here we have beings (thetans) that ARE perfect and completely right in their beingness, who convince themselves they were in some way wrong for something they did (guilt), who then insist they were being right because it’s unconfrontable to be anything but what we are - perfect beings, or if you really want to use LRH, we’re basically good beings.
If the Adam and Eve story could be a parable for anything, it would be that we don’t have to be right, we just have to be honest (which is rightness in itself). We are constantly learning, growing, and evolving on this planet, and in this vast universe. Blame is so stupid and it further divides us from our true selves - so the next time we make a mistake, let’s take a moment to think about the fact that the consequences of alter-ising are far greater than the mistakes we’ve made. If we lie once about a mistake, it opens the door for future lies, each one of those lies corroding our awareness, thus corroding our abilities to be, do, and have.
Luckily for us, and thanks to Scientology, we have the ability to go back and unmock all of it through auditing. I used to be like Eve, blaming everyone else for my problems, and even when I thought I was taking responsibility, I wasn’t, I was just doing what was expected (making up the damages but with unexpressed resentment). After lots of auditing and training, I have EXPLODED in my beingness, doingness, and havingness.
The ego is the stupidest thing. You are completely right, you are completely perfect - and not in a narcissistic way - you just ARE. That’s why it’s BEINGNESS. There is no reason to preserve your beingness by lying about it. So wipe the mud off, because we’re diamonds who may just think of ourselves as pebbles.